Five Years From Now I'm

I Really Believe In Completely Being Naive And Having High Hopes When Meeting Someone New. I Can Kind Of Re-do My Stupidity Or My Naivete.

I Might Sound Crazy About This But, Years Ago, My Mom Told Me: "we Almost Died When You Were Born. Both Of Us." I Was A Caesarean Baby, And The Doctor Who Delivered Me Later Told Me, "i Opened Your Mother Up, And You Were Right There. It Freaked Me Out Because Everything Was Broken And Out-there." I've Thought About It A Lot - Could This Have Something To Do With The Fact That I'm Only Happy When I'm At Home And Alone? Maybe I Was Just Freaking Out For Two Weeks Before I Was Born, Feeling Really Insecure.

I Think I'm Better At Live Shows Than I Used To Be Because I'm Way More Comfortable With The Uncomfortable Pauses Between Songs. Now, Rather Than Trying To Talk Or Do A Costume Change, I'll Use Those Moments For Myself. I Listen To What Other People Are Playing, Or Just Rest, Or Dance, Even Though I Don't Know How To.

I Want To Be Able To Do Whatever I Feel Like Doing And Not Worry About Anything. Even When I Was A Kid, The Only Contemporary Artist I Listened To Was Cyndi Lauper.

I Like The Idea Of The Idler Wheel - It Just Sits In Between Things, But It Makes Such A Big Difference In The Way That The Machine Is Working. That Concept Has Always Been Something That Has Interested Me, But I Didn't Really Know Why.