Luckily I Haven't Fallen Into

I've Noticed It A Lot. I'm Not Someone Who Revises. It's Always The First Movement, It's That. It's An Instinct. Either It Works Straight Away, Or It Won't Ever Work.

Of Course You Have Memories, And These Memories Are Convincing. But It's Really At The Moment When I Write Them Down - When I Write About My Relationship With That Japanese Boy In Ni D'eve, Ni D'adam - That They Reach A Degree Of Reality Which Is Incandescent, That I've Really Conquered A Story, Understood It And Feel That It Is Really Part Of Me.

Luckily I Haven't Fallen Into The Trap, Which Has Claimed So Many Writers, Of Living From Day To Day Thinking 'ah, I'll Write A Book About That.'

It's While Writing That Suddenly A Point Of View Appears: 'so, That's What I Really Thought About This Thing'. Then It Feels Part Of Me.

I Thought Maybe I Would Become A God, Or A Goddess, Or A President Or A Nobel Prize Winner.