I Just Want To Feel

The Age Thing Really Bugs Me. Do People Have More Of A Right To Not Like What I Say Because I'm 19?

One Of My Friends Said To Me, "oh Yeah, Of Course You Aren't Writing." So I Was Like, "the Next Time You See Me, I'm Gonna Have A New Song." I Wrote "criminal" In 45 Minutes When Everyone Else Went To Lunch Because I Had To Have A Hit. I Can Force Myself To Do The Work, But Only If Someone Is Right Up Behind Me.

Do They Think I'm On Drugs? That I Have A Life-threatening Illness? That I'm Anorexic? Emotionally, It Doesn't Get Easier To Hear Those Criticisms - But It Gets Easier To Be Resolute About My Reaction To It.

I Caved In To What People Wanted Me To Do. I Thought That They Weren't Going To Like Me If I Didn't.

I Read On The Internet That I Was Dead.