I Always Wanted To Be

Although My Book Is Banned I Am Still Allowed To Go To China And Travel. There Is No Longer The Kind Of Control That Mao Used To Have-there Have Been Deep Fundamental Changes In Society.

As A Child, My Idea Of The West Was That It Was A Miasma Of Poverty And Misery, Like That Of The Homeless 'little Match Girl'in The Hans Christian Andersen Story. When I Was In The Boarding Nursery And Did Not Want To Finish My Food, The Teacher Would Say:'think Of All The Starving Children In The Capitalist World!

When He Asked My Grandmother If She Would Mind Being Poor, She Said She Would Be Happy Just To Have Her Daughter And Himself: 'if You Have Love, Even Plain Water Is Sweet.

China Is More Prosperous Than Before. The People Have Better Lives But They Are Not Happy And Confident Because The Scars Are Still There.

I Feel Perhaps My Heart Is Still In China.