You Don't Have To Follow

Whatever Hardships There Have Been In My Life I Still Live In A Very Privileged Position. Fear Is Not Knowing Where Your Next Meal Is Coming From. Fear Is Seeing A Child Get Hurt. Fear Is Watching Someone You Love Waste Away. Fear Is Knowing You Are Going To Die Yourself. But There's No Fear In What I Do. I Write Books.

We Did What Our People Do All The Time, We Told Ourselves Something We Did Was Right And We Found A Way To Justify It, Even Though We Knew It Was Wrong.

I Close My Eyes And I Take A Deep Breath And I Think About My Life And How I Ended Up This Way. I Think About The Ruin, Devastation And Wreckage I Have Caused To Myself And To Others. I Think About Self-hatred And Self-loathing. I Think About How And Why And What Happened And The Thoughts Come Easily, But The Answers Don't.

Let Things Be, Let Yourself Be, Let Everything Be And Accept It As It Is. Nothing More. Nothing Less.

I Turn And I Slowly Walk Away And I Don't Look Back. It Has Always Been A Fault Of Mine, But It Is The Way I Am. I Never Look Back. Never.