Yes, You Are Exactly My

Who's Afraid Of The Big Bad Wolf?" Jacob Black New Moon

Life Sucks, And Then You Die.

Our Relationship Couldn't Continue To Balance, As It Did, On The Point Of A Knife. We Would Fall Off One Edge Or The Other, Depending Entirely Upon His Decision, Or His Instincts. My Decision Was Made, Made Before I'd Ever Consciously Chosen, And I Was Committed To Seeing It Through. Because There Was Nothing More Terrifying To Me, More Excruciating, Than The Thought Of Turning Away From Him. It Was An Impossibility.

I Struggled To Find The Words To Name The Feelings That Flooded Through Me, But I Had No Words Strong Enough To Hold Them. For A Long Moment, I Drowned In Them. When I Surfaced, I Was Not The Same Man I Had Been. My Life Was An Unending, Unchanging Midnight. It Must, By Necessity, Always Be Midnight For Me. So How Was It Possible That The Sun Was Rising Now, In The Middle Of My Midnight?

Vampirism, For Me, Was A Way To Live In Fantasy And Have Superpowers, But Not Just In A Really Perfect, Happy, Everything Is Great Way. It's Superpowers With A Cost. It's Having To Be The Villain, And What Do You Do About That.