So Long As I Have

All The World Began With A Yes. One Molecule Said Yes To Another Molecule And Life Was Born. But Before Prehistory There Was The Prehistory Of The Prehistory And There Was The Never And There Was The Yes. It Was Ever So. I Don’t Know Why, But I Do Know That The Universe Never Began. Make No Mistake, I Only Achieve Simplicity With Enormous Effort.

I Want The Following Word: Splendor, Splendor Is Fruit In All Its Succulence, Fruit Without Sadness. I Want Vast Distances. My Savage Intuition Of Myself.

I Just Know That I Don't Want Cheating. I Refuse. I Deepened Myself But I Don't Believe In Myself Because My Thought Is Invented.

Ignorance Of The Law Of Irreducibility Was No Excuse. I Could No Longer Excuse Myself With The Claim That I Didn't Know The Law -- For Knowledge Of Self And Of The World Is The Law That, Even Though Unattainable, Cannot Be Broken, And No One Can Excuse Himself By Saying That He Doesn't Know It. . . . The Renewed Originality Of The Sin Is This: I Have To Carry Out My Unknowing, I Shall Be Sinning Originally Against Life.

I Only Achieve Simplicity With Enormous Effort