If You Aren't Going To

I Was Battling Depression, Went Through A Really Hard Time In My Marriage, And I Used To Cry Myself To Sleep. I Went Through Years And Years Of Pain And Suffering, And Finally Got Help. I Feel So Much Better Now, Feel Like A New Person, So Now I Can Be Happy About It.

To Be Yourself And To Learn From Your Mistakes. If You Have A Problem, Try To Get Help, You Can Get Through It If You Get Help. When We Were On The Show, There Was No Paparazzi, None Of That. I Was Really Lucky That I Got To Avoid All That.

From What I've Been Able To Figure Out, All Of Us Are Here Together And We Need One Another. We Must Celebrate Each Other's Differences. Learning To Ask For Help Is As Important As Learning The Value Of Helping Other People. I Believe All The People In My Life Have Been There For A Reason, And I Hope I Have Been In Theirs For A Reason As Well. It's Taken Me A While, But I Feel Truly Blessed. After All Is Said And Done, I Love Life, I Love People, And I Love Being Me.

I Didn't Think I Could Be My Imperfect Self. I Pretended I Was Marcia, So I Was Always Playing This Role. I Became Her, But Yet I Wasn't. It's Strange.

But To Win, I Was Overwhelmed - It Felt Great! I Was Really Excited. I Didn't Expect It, But I'm Also Really Competitive. As Soon As I Hear The Word "competition" I Get Serious And Start Doing Everything That I Can Do.