I Remember That My Mother

How Different This Moment Feels, For So Many Reasons. I Tell Myself That No Two Loves Are Identical - But That I Don't Have To Compare Anymore.

He Was Uncomplicated And Upbeat And Easy. At One Point, I Might Have Thought These Traits Made Him A Simpleton, But Now I Think They Just Translate To Happiness.

I Don't Break Up, I Trade Up

I Think I Hoped For Something More. Maybe I Even Hoped That I Could Find In Richard What I Had With Ben. But It Is Suddenly Very Clear: Richard Is Not Fallin In Love With Me And I'm Not Falling In Love With Richard. We Are Not Creating Anything Permanent Or Special. We Are Only Having Fun Together. It Is A Fling- A Fling Just Like He Said Last Night- A Fling With An Ending Yet To Be Determined. I Feel Relieved To Have It Defined

I Wondered Why I Was So Startled By The Encounter When There Was Something That Seemed Utterly Inevitable About The Moment. Not In Any Grand, Destined Sense; Just In The Quiet, Stubborn Way That Unfinished Business Has Of Imposing Its Will On The Unwilling.