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I've Always Had A Huge Fear Of Dying Or Becoming Ill. The Thing I'm Most Afraid Of, Though, Is Being Alone, Which I Think A Lot Of Performers Fear. It's Why We Seek The Limelight - So We're Not Alone, Were Adored. Were Loved, So People Want To Be Around Us. The Fear Of Being Alone Drives My Life.

Everything I Wanted Before, I Want Twice As Much Now. And That Doesn't Mean Material Things; It Means To Explore More, To Think More. Being An Artist Doesn't Start Because You're 21, And It Doesn't End Because You're 51. You Are Who You Are Until The Day You Die.

It Was Easy To Blame Other People For Treating Me In Ways I Didn't Like, But Now I Was Seeing That I Was The One At Fault. The Only Way You Can Be Mistreated Is By Allowing Yourself To Be Mistreated, And That Was Something I Did Over And Over Again. Somehow, I Needed To Find That Glimmer Of Self-respect, Buried Deep Inside, That Would Allow Me To Say: I Am Never Going To Let That Happen To Me Again. I Needed To Learn How To Stand Up For Myself In A Different Way, But I Didn't Know How.

Obviously No Parent Does Everything Right. It's This Weird Thing That Happens Where You Are Striving To Be As Good As You Can Be So That They Turn Out Well. And That Requires That You Be A Really Great, Evolved, Aware Person In Every Moment. Which Is Pretty Awesome. But It's Also Putting Tremendous Pressure On Yourself--which Is Why Women Feel So Guilty!

You Have To Fight For The Things You Want.