I Had To Come To

I Had Become Conscious Of My Physicality, Aware Of My Presence And Open To The Ugly Truths Of The World. At The Age Of Thirteen, I Realised That There Was A Danger In Innocence And Beauty, And I Could Not Live With Both.

I've Been Slagged Off Completely By The Art World And I Don't Know Whether Fancy Being Slagged Off By The Literary World As Well. It's Just Too Much.

Because Of The Amount Of Press Attention, People Went To See This Dirty Bed, As If It Was A Freak Show. But When They Got There, They Saw Something Else - The Bed, Stuff On The Walls, Whatever. For The Tate, It's The Highest Attendance They Ever Received For The Turner Prize Show. There Was A Massive Queue, And When You Got Into My Bit, You Couldn't Move.

The Words Went Round And Round And Round In My Mind And My Body, Until I Knew They Were No Longer My Words But Something That Had Been Carved Into My Heart. And Now My Soul Was Crying.

When I Think About Sex It Makes Me Realise How Alone I Feel.