I Had So Much Fear

It's Very Important That Young Artists Push Boundaries, Because Sometimes You Have This Urge To Do Something - Like The Impulsive And Dangerous Urges I Had As A Child - And If You Don't Follow Through With It You Might Miss Out On A Developmental Experience.

You Create A Friendship On A Level That You've Never Done Before. The Basic Kind Of Experience Is To Basically Give Love To Total Strangers All The Time, And That Really Changed Everything In Me. And This Piece Transformed Me More Than Any Other One Before. I Saw My Entire Life Differently. What Do I Have To Do? What Is My Passion On This Planet? I'm Much More Focused Than I Ever Was Before.

The Experience I Learned Was That … If You Leave Decision To The Public, You Can Be Killed… I Felt Really Violated: They Cut My Clothes, Stuck Rose Thorns In My Stomach, One Person Aimed The Gun At My Head, And Another Took It Away. It Created An Aggressive Atmosphere. After Exactly 6 Hours, As Planned, I Stood Up And Started Walking Toward The Public. Everyone Ran Away, Escaping An Actual Confrontation.

Woody Allen Has A Wonderful Line: 'today I'm A Star. What Will I Be Tomorrow? A Black Hole?' That's Very Important To Know - That You Have The Moment, Then You Lose The Moment. You Have To See Your Chances, You Have To Take Them, And You Also Have To See When You Don't Have Chances To Take.

Every Party Is The Same, Too Many People, Too Little Food, And You Have To Wait Around. I'm Extremely Bored With Parties.