I Don't Think That Word

I Had A Lot Of Time To Myself, And I Would Listen To A Lot Of Music, Mostly Music That I Knew Fairly Well And Had A Relationship With. And I'd Think, Well, What Is It That I've Never Been Able To Do That This Person Or People Are Able To Do With This Song? Why Haven't I Been Able To Do It, And What Can They Do That I Wish I Could Do? And Then I'd Try To Do That. I'd Start Each Day Getting Into The Songs, And I'd Think About How I Might Get Closer To This Music That I Love, But Haven't Been Able To Make Before.

I Write A Song To Be Recorded. And To Some Extent To Be Performed, But Definitely More To Be Recorded Than Performed, Because The Recording Will Last Longer Than A Performance.

I Don't Like Going To Cities. I Don't Mind Maybe Being In A City Sometimes For A Few Hours, But I Pretty Much Don't Like Cities. I Don't Even Like Passing Through Them.

The Sense Of Waking Up In The Morning And Knowing That There Is Music Ahead Of Me In The Day Is Such An Incredible Feeling. The More I Engage With Music The More Days I Wake Up And Know That That's What's Going To Be There, And The Things That Come With Music.

I Don't Know The Reasons Why Something Is Intimidating To Me Or Disgusting To Me And I Don't Like Feeling That Way, Either. I Don't Like It When Something Turns Me Off, On Any Level. So, Its A Matter Of Saying: Well, I Can Either Sit Here And Reject, Or I Can Do Double-time Embracing Of Something Else Just To Reassure Myself That I'm Not Against The World.