A Conductor Can't Be Too

I Was Trundling Around With My Inadequacies, And Inner Pain And Loneliness. I Yearned, Desperately, To Be Something. I Yearned To Get Out From Where I Was ... Some Deep Discontent Within Myself, Actually Some Deep Dislike Of Myself.

I've Had No ­contact With My Daughter For Years. That's Her Choice. Anyway, You Move On. If People Don't Want To Bother With Me, Fine. You Know, God Bless Them, And Move On.

Working With Katherine Hepburn, She Said To Me, "don't Act." She Said, "read The Lines. Just Be. Just Speak The Lines." I Said, "okay." She Said, "you Look Good. You Got A Good Pair Of Shoulders, You Got A Good Head, Good Face."

I Just Remember Kathy Bates Getting On The Stage And "the Oscar Goes To Anthony Hopkins." I Looked Around, Because I Really Thought Nick Nolte Would Get It. I Really Thought Nick Would Get It. I Was Very Surprised. It Was Neck And Neck With Nick Nolte And Myself. So I Really Was Expecting That To Happen, And I Went In There Without Any Expectations.

I've Felt Like An Outsider All My Life. It Comes From My Mother, Who Always Felt Like An Outsider In My Father's Family. She Was A Powerful Woman, And She Motivated My Father.