How Different This Moment Feels,

My Wants Are Simple: A Job That I Like And A Guy Whom I Love.

Sorrow Comes With So Many Defense Mechanisms. You Have Your Shock, Your Denial, Your Getting Wasted, Your Cracking Jokes, And Your Religion. You Also Have The Old Standby Catchall—the Blind Belief In Fate, The Whole "things Happening For A Reason" Drill.

What Appeals To You The Most Is The Very Thing That Will Drive You Crazy

I Think I Hoped For Something More. Maybe I Even Hoped That I Could Find In Richard What I Had With Ben. But It Is Suddenly Very Clear: Richard Is Not Fallin In Love With Me And I'm Not Falling In Love With Richard. We Are Not Creating Anything Permanent Or Special. We Are Only Having Fun Together. It Is A Fling- A Fling Just Like He Said Last Night- A Fling With An Ending Yet To Be Determined. I Feel Relieved To Have It Defined

It's A Funny Thing - When I'm Crazed With Work, Spending Time With My Children Relaxes Me. Yet, At The End Of A Long Weekend With Them, The Very Thing I Need To Relax Is A Little Work And Time Away From Them!