For A While I Had

[i Hate] The Ways That People Want Their Special Needs To Be Met, Whether It's Their Food Allergies Or Their Special Lotions Or Shoes. Or The Ways That People Want Their Neighborhoods And Restaurants Curated In A Way That's Really Tailored To Them. Growing Up With Someone Who Was Living By These Very Strict, Repressive Rules For Themselves - It Made Me Very Allergic To The Idea Of Denial.

I Read A Lot; Fiction And Non-fiction Are The Mediums I Find Most Edifying And Inspiring. I Watch Movies And Listen To Music And Take Lots And Lots Of Walks. Nature Is A Nice Reset Button For Me, It's How I Get A Lot Of Thinking Done.

I've Honestly Always Been An Overly Analytical, Highly Observant Person. I Was Playing Music But Thinking About It At Same Time, Which Was Sort Of Exhausting. Aside From The Pain Of Writing - You're Not Really In A Gang Like You Are In Band, It's A Little Bit Lonelier - I Think It Was Always Something That I'd Wanted To Do. So The Transition Wasn't Abrupt Or Painful.

I've Mostly Been Focusing On Writing, And I've Really Enjoyed Not Playing Music. It Will Always Be Part Of My Life, But I Don't Feel The Immediate Need To Be Playing For People.

I Think That Half Of Us Feel Fraudulent In Our Lives Anyway. There's That Strange Disconnect Of Not Really Knowing What We're Doing Sometimes, Or Why It Matters. It's Our Existential Crisis.